I walked into a glass door yesterday. It wasn’t one of those high-concept architectural marvels where the transparency is a design flex. It was a standard, slightly smudged commercial door with a very obvious handle and a small orange sticker of a bird at eye level meant to prevent exactly what happened.
I saw the bird. I saw the handle. I simply lacked the cognitive bandwidth to negotiate the physical reality of the hinge. My brain registered “exit” but forgot to trigger the sub-routine for “opening the barrier.” My forehead hit the pane with a dull, hollow thud that echoed through the lobby like a low-grade gong.
The woman at the reception desk didn’t laugh, which was worse. She looked at me with a profound, weary pity. I realized then that I wasn’t just clumsy; I was vibrating on a frequency of pure, unadulterated exhaustion. And the most frustrating part of that vibration is that for the previous , I had been “optimizing.”
I had been color-coding a spreadsheet of possible supplements, reading white papers on circadian rhythms, and trying to find a gap in my schedule to book a consultation for my chronic fatigue. I was working very, very hard at trying to figure out why I was too tired to work.
